Hormones

You can probably guess, if you’ve read any of my other posts, that my hormones are a bit all over the place at the moment. Before our little boy was born, I remember seeing all over social media how it takes a woman’s body 2 years to balance out again and make you feel somewhat like yourself. As if our bodies haven’t been through enough in growing a baby?! Whilst I can’t personally vouch for the 2 years yet, I can give you an insight into how I’ve felt over the last few months. 

I’m not typically someone who cries much, or cried. I can absolutely be a bit sensitive and take things a little too personally at times, but I don’t express that through crying. Now, crying feels like a part of my personality! That’s definitely been something I’ve had to adjust to, and have found difficult doing. I feel like, at times, I have lost my ability to rationalise things until long after they’ve happened. I find myself getting upset about things that, in the past, would never have bothered me, or even have crossed my mind to bother me. 

There are days when I feel so alone, yet I know I’m not. There are days when I want to get out and be busy, and days where I just want to stay at home. Then there are the days when I want to be surrounded by people, and days where my social battery has ran out and I just want to be on my own (with our baby). And then there are the days when I really don’t get a choice in how my day is going to go because, well, I’m a mum! Pre-motherhood, I absolutely would say I had days like some of the above, I mean didn’t we all?! I would just say that now the feelings on those days are more intensified. I read a blog on ‘Happy Mum, Happy Baby’ about overstimulation and some of what I was feeling definitely resonated. Your senses are in literal overdrive when you become a parent and so I think it’s normal to feel a bit up, and down, from one day to the next. I think what’s important is to allow yourself, and be ok, to have the days like I’ve mentioned above, but just be sure to take notice of them and talk about them if you need to. 

E x 

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